It's Been A While...

Well, it has been almost a month since I last blogged. I guess it is because I have been so busy that blogging hasn't been so important lately. Other things have become more important. Every day just gets better and better. Gilly and I have been dating for almost two months now. Its sooo crazy that it has been that long already. It's amazing though. And I don't think I have ever been more in love in my life than I am right now. Things are perfect. I have pretty much forgotten all my problems. Its like with Gil, I just don't have any problems. But of course, the difficulties in life still exist. Still not talking to mom or any more of my family. Saw mom at the grocery store about a week ago while I was with Gil. We both looked at each other...but neither of us spoke to one another. And that was it. Other than that, nothing has changed. But I am finally ok with that. Mom's birthday is actually this month, on March 18th. Kinda wanna see her, but if not, that's cool too. I shouldn't have to go out of my way to make an effort into this relationship if she doesn't want it. I have only grown closer with Gil's family though. I think his whole family sees us staying together for a very long time. And Gil and I have been spending pretty much every day together. I now go to Baker every single weekend with him. I used to go so that I would somehow feel closer to mom or so that Id somehow see her. Now, I go because I look forward to spending time with the Ravans. Like I said, I don't dwell on my problems as much anymore. Yes, they are still there but I just don't care as much. This week is going to be awesome. Going to see Gil on Wednesday, hopefully go to the beach sometime this week, and we are going to help my aunt paint this weekend. And I can not wait til May!! Hopefully going to Louisiana with Gil and his parents for a week. Can't wait!!! Well, guess that's all that's new right now. Will blog again soon.
-Taylor <3

Day before Valentine's Day

Well my title pretty much says it all. Today is the day before Valentine's Day. Pretty excited about tomorrow. Going to spend the day with Gil of course. We are going to go see The Vow, which I have been dying to see for months now. (Just finished the book today and the movie will hopefully be just as amazing!!!) And get some dinner. And on Thursday, the 16th, will be exactly one month for us. It doesn't seem like it's been that long but the time has just flown by. Still job looking and getting absolutely nowhere. Really sick of this. A job is not too much to ask in my opinion. The interview I had with Gil's aunt went well but there were a few people ahead of me and they hired someone else instead of me. I'm tired of being below everyone else in this house. My aunt and uncle work and my cousin goes to school. And Gil is in college right now and Im not even doing that. I'm always at the bottom while everyone else is above me. And that's pretty much the worst feeling ever. And trying to stay positive about this whole thing is not easy. Still hoping something will change though. Hoping tomorrow will help take my mind off things. Been thinking of my family alot more too. My brother's birthday is this Friday. And I will not be able to see him.  And my mother's birthday is next month. I hate it when these kinda things come up and I can not be there because I know that I am no longer welcome in my own family. Guess that's about it. Will blog again soon.....

You Da One

Hello bloggers! Haven't posted in a while now. Gotten kinda lazy with it but Gil is always asking me to post....dont know why. I guess he just likes to know what Im thinking. Well, yesterday made two weeks for Gilly and I. Can't believe we have already been dating that long. But its awesome. Hanging out with him tomorrow. Going to see about a job with his aunt actually! It would be full time and it pays good so I really hope I get it. Going to give them my resume and see what happens. If I get this job, and if Gil finds a job soon, we hope to save up so that we can move in together. That would be amazing. Yeah its a big step to only be dating two weeks but I have known Gil for six months so it's not weird at all and seems right. And we feel like we are both ready for it. So that's our goal that we set for ourselves. Just hope we can make it happen and soon. I know he wants to move out of his apartment with his roommates and I love living here with my aunt, but I do want some independence and to learn to do things on my own and moving out of here is the best way to do it. I have never really moved in with a guy, just him and I so it will be new for me. For both of us. But I feel as if it will just make our relationship stronger and it will grow even more. We have already been looking into apartments and how much things will cost so we are definitely serious about all of this. So that is what's new with us. And I got a phone call yesterday....from my mother. I never gave her my new number and neither did my aunt so I have no idea how she got it. She wouldn't tell me either. But anyway, she called and didn't really have much to say. She just kept asking me what I was doing, why I was dating Gil, do I have a job, blah, blah, blah. I just don't get it. How can she just disappear out of my life and then just randomly call me and start playing 20 questions?? So I just pretty much told her I'm doing okay but I just can't answer her questions because they are really none of her business. And I think she is still disappointed that I broke up with Chris, whom she thought was the perfect guy for me and all. Mostly because she knew him before I did and because he had money. But I just didn't see anything between us, and that upsets her I suppose. She asked me on the phone why I was dating someone that isn't my type and Chris was so different and all that. And I realized something at that point....the reason my mom liked Chris was because she liked him for her reasons only. She doesn't like who I am dating now because she doesn't know him and she knows she can't control the relationship. And so what Gil doesn't have money like Chris did? I don't have a job either and I am NOT going to date some guy just for his money. That is stupid. I would never use someone like that. I am over Chris and want nothing more to do with him but I feel like my mom still pressures it on me. But anyway, the conversation between us got nowhere as usual. And apart of me just wanted to hang up the phone on her, but another part of me wanted to still talk to her even when the conversation ended because I really do miss her. But I feel as if she really and truly missed me she wouldn't have argued on the phone. She wouldve said she missed me and maybe apologized or invite me to dinner or something where we could talk things out. But mom doesnt do that. But whether my mom likes it or not, I am finally getting happy again and she's not gonna mess that up. I do have the perfect guy that loves me for who I am and takes care of me and who I see a future with. And I am living my life to please myself, not others. And as soon as I get that job and get my life started, I am going to move in with Gil, because that is what I want. And that's all that matters.

Hot Cheetos

So today makes exactly one week for me and Gilly!! Yeah, only a week I know but still. Its important lol. Had fun hanging with him this weekend in Macclenny...turns out I went to see mom Saturday evening to pick up something. Gil took me and all mom and I did was argue and disagree as usual. Apparently, theres still some "changes" I have to make. Which I really dont know what those would be...there is nothing I need to change. I told her I am not going to change myself and my personality and the way I think and feel just to please her and the rest of the family. She really didn't like that comment but whatever. I am getting to where I do not care anymore. Things will never change between us. But anyway, I see Gil Wednesday. Hes gonna help me file my taxes online. Yay. Hopefully I get some money back!!! Could really use it right now. Well, anyway thats all thats new. Fixing to go eat dinner so Im out bloggers. Toodles. 

By the way, I called this post Hot Cheetos because I am craving hot cheetos. :) 

Well, I talk about him so much soooo thought I would post a pic. Gotta love Gilly :)

Just Amazing

Well just got home a little while ago from hanging out with Gilly. I love him so much. We just kinda hung out at his apartment. Chilled and watched movies. Its cool that I can do those simple things with him and it be great each and every time. We don't have to always go somewhere or go out to dinner or anything like that. It can be simple and still awesome. I guess that is what I like most about our relationship so far. Which by the way, we have almost been dating a week lol. Oh! And on the way home, we stopped by his Nana's work and I got to meet her for the first time! I have chatted with her on Facebook before but meeting her in person was even better. I love meeting Gilly's family. I feel like I have a really good connection with all of them and they make me feel like I have a family again, something I didn't think could even be possible. And going bowling with him and his family tomorrow night. Gonna spend the night in Macclenny and will be back sometime tomorrow. Too excited. Everything is perfect. Well later bloggers. :)

Hanging By A Moment

Hanging by a Moment by Lifehouse. It perfectly describes how today went. Today was just amazing. G and I had our first date day today. It was awesome. We went to the movies, got lunch, went to the mall, and just hung out. I must say, I am completely in love with him. I think I was all along, it just took me a while to realize it. And now that I have realized it, I couldn't be happier and I feel like the luckiest girl ever. Gil has been there for me through everything. He has heard every problem I have had, whether it was family drama, a break up, a new guy I was crushing on, whatever if it was, he was there for me as my best friend and now he is there for even more than that. And it all feels so natural. Like, holding his hand and showing him off to people, and everyone knowing we are a couple, it feels perfect. G told his family and friends about him and I and it seems like everyone is happy for us and thinks its about time we got together lol. I am seriously just happy. And that is all I have ever wanted. G gives me all I ever wanted in a relationship.Well bloggers, its late and I am so tired. Probably gonna log off and get some sleep here in a little bit. Toodles. :)