The Best Day Ever

The title pretty much says it all. Today has seriously been the best day ever. "G" and I hung out. He had just gotten back from being in SC and I really wanted to see him. So I told him how things didn't work out with my boyfriend and how things were going. Then...idk...things just happened. I have always loved G, I have been in love with him for the longest time but it never seemed like the right time to date him and then I got into a relationship with another guy and G and I just stayed friends ever since. But not anymore. Nope. We are now and finally a couple. And it honestly feels amazing. This is the first relationship I have actually been sure about since I was engaged in the past...and thats pretty big to me. I have never been so sure that I can see myself being with G for a long time...possibly the rest of my life with him. I can't believe I am saying all this but even as I am typing, I have a huge smile on my face. Things are going great and couldn't be better. :)

Putting Myself First

Another long day. Just spent the day with my aunt. Also got a text from Chris saying I left my shoes in his car so he came by to drop them off....and along with that, he brought me a card and flowers.....the card pretty much was an apology and he wants me to take him back and work things out. Which I am really not interested in. The fact that he brought me flowers made me feel so guilty but I can't date someone again just because I am sad for the way they feel..like I said in the last post, gotta put myself first before others...even if it hurts. But I think besides that, everything seems ok. Just been resting up since I was sick the past few days but feeling so much better, thank God. Well getting off here to go eat dinner. Later bloggers....
Oh and by the way, really excited about Tuesday....hanging with my bestest friend which will really help me take my mind off things :)

There's No Place Like Home

Well, went to Disney World with Chris as planned yesterday. But came home a little earlier than expected. We were supposed to stay all weekend and come home Sunday night. But I had him take me home Saturday night instead. Something unexpected happened (long story) and he didn't stand up for me and at that moment I knew this is not the kinda relationship I need. So he took me home and I broke things off. Normally, I would care about someone's feelings more than my own but its about time I care about my own feelings. And something I have learned from this is that love and happiness are two entirely different things. You can love someone so much but still not be happy in a relationship with them. And once you do love a guy and are 100% happy, then and only then, are you in a real relationship that will actually get somewhere. I know that I truly loved Chris but it obviously was not meant to be. So I am a single lady once again...but it's a relief in a way because I can have a new start again. I have my friends and family to help me and be there for me and thats all I really need right now. And I am kinda glad I came home early. Feels good to be home with the ones you love. Guess Dorothy was right, there is no place like home.

I Wonder

Ok, I usually don't care for Kelly Pickler, at all lol but she has this one song called "I Wonder" and I love it because I can really relate to it. It's about her having a hard time building a relationship with her mother. And, of course, that is exactly what I am going through. I remember reading this quote not too long ago that said missing someone isn't about how long it has been since you've seen them or the amount of time since you've talked. It's about that very moment when you find yourself doing something and wishing they were right there by your side. I don't miss mom all the time. I just wish she could be here at times when something really important happens in my life. Sometimes I slip up and accidently call my aunt my mom. Not because she is a great motherly figure, but I think it is just because I just miss calling someone "mom". Weird to miss something like that but I do. But anyway, Chris and I ended up not going to Disney World last weekend because he had to stay out of town another week. Sooo that means we are supposed to be going this weekend. Yay!!! Pretty excited about spending time with him. Spending Saturday at Disney and probably going to hit up the malls in Orlando on Sunday. Can't believe we have been dating for about a month now. Time has been going by way to fast lately. Still getting used to a long distance type relationship, but other than that, everything is going great. Well, guess that's about it. Been feeling kinda sick today so going to go chill out. Later bloggers!!

New Year, New Beginning

Everything seems to be going pretty well. My cousin is here for the week and I am really feeling like this is home and this is my family. If someone would have told me things would be this great a few months ago, I would have laughed at them in the face. I would have never believed things could be this good. Had a great New Years. Spent it with my boyfriend, Chris. We spent alll day at the St. Johns Town Center. And we even picked out a promise ring which was pretty awesome. Then saw a movie. Then we went down to the landing...which was full of nothing but drunk people lol but it was still fun. It was definitely a great night out. Even called mom up and told her me and Chris got a promise ring. She seemed happy about it and we talk a little more than we used to. Still miss her like crazy though. I still hold a lot of memories that her and I had. But that's all they are now is memories. And either this weekend or next weekend, depending on when Chris gets home from working out of town, we are going to Disney World together! Which is amazing because I haven't been since I was a kid and I would love to go again. And it will be the small vacation I think I've been needing. Will post pics of course. I feel like this is a new year but also a new start for me. And so far, it's off to an amazing start. I just want it to stay that way. I didn't have any resolutions either. Except to just be happy. That's all I need right now. Nothing else matters. Well, guess thats really all thats new. Later bloggers.

That's The Jingle Bell Rock ;)

Well Merry Christmas to all you bloggers out there. Can't believe it is already here. What I thought was going to be the worst Christmas ever....actually turned out to be the best ever. Still didn't see mom or dad but something better happened. The guy I have been dating, Chris, actually made my Christmas the best ever. He not only took me out and showed me a great time, but he got me a bunch of gifts and he spoiled me like always lol. My aunt also gave me a wonderful holiday. With her, I don't miss home. I feel at home here and that is how it should be. Everything in my life is finally getting better and things are getting easier as the days go by. The only thing that would have made this Christmas even better would be snow.....but this is Florida lol so not gonna happen. Well, going to get back to spending time with the family. Happy Holidays everyone!!

La la la whatever la la la it doesn't matter.....

Can't wait for tomorrow!!! Actually have a date....I feel like now is the good time to start dating again because the only thing I am worrying about is getting a job. I no longer have to worry about what my mom and dad are going to think or how is this person going to feel...because none of that really matters anymore. Really excited but kinda nervous too. I am actually going out with a guy I had dated for about a month in the past. But I broke up with him because I just had so much going on. But now that the timing is better, I thought, why not? Other than that, everything is pretty much the same around here. 4 days til Christmas....